[ he'll let him do that, but he's thinking over the question for a while. ]

Couple of reasons, I think. Some a bit more ugly than others. I knew the lie from trial, wasn't going to hold up, so I thought, better to just start telling people. It's going to come across better, if I'm saying it, right?

But suppose I told you before most because I trust you. Don't really know why. I just think if I told you, you'd keep it to yourself if I wanted you to, and you wouldn't judge me for it too harshly either. Not saying you couldn't-- Judge me, that is.