he closes his eyes then, because he's not in charge of where they're going, so he doesn't have to keep them open. he lets his head rest against tsuru's chest.]
.... I suppose not all of us dream of our hostage, then.
[softly, to start.]
.... Aruji was destroying each of you. One by one, using machines to destroy their blades. He was lost to me. The Citadel gone. The ink came for me next, and broke me, until I awoke again and the dream repeated.
[he listens to tsurumaru's heart to keep him steady - and he does not open his eyes. but that does not stop the sadness that permeates into his voice. he was so careful not to speak of it.
[ the greatest accomplishment here is that tsuru doesn't drop him
he doesn't let his steps falter, instead focusing on walking forward. the only other movement is that he leans forward to press a kiss to the top mikazuki's head, soft and warm.
tsurumaru is searching for an answer here. he doesn't think he has one that will solve this. ]
All these places do is feed off of us. Our negativity, our pain, our dreams... each week it tries to erode away our spirits until we're less than we were.
[ it really is unfortunate that mikazuki has had bad luck these last few weeks. ]
You will not break. Even if I have to keep you whole with my bare hands.
[because even now - jiji's glow had been faint over the course of the week, but ever since returning on thursday, it looks as though he has begun to crack. like porcelain breaking.]
And what if I would rather keep you whole, than make you bleed with my pieces?
[he will reach out with his right hand to settle at the back of tsuru's neck, encouraging him to join him]
... it is hard to suggest that I adore you in part. That I might choose your independence, your humor, your subtle care as my favorite piece of you... though I am fond of them all.
Perhaps, when you smile especially brightly, I find you even more beautiful. Or when you are steadfast and reliable, I desire to keep you closer.
But it is you, in your entirety, that I hold dear, Tsurumaru Kuninaga. I possess no favorite part of you, because you are my favorite.
If anything, the clue just left us even more confused. Since the list of names was the only thing we had to go on, most people wouldn't want to let go of it even if it was framing...
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[ this is tsuru's only admittance to gaslighting jiji about his looks ]
I'm fine. It was only a dream.
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[simply.]
.... I believe they show us that which might unsettle our heart most - or at least draws close to the feeling.
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[ isn't that the question of the century. ]
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he closes his eyes then, because he's not in charge of where they're going, so he doesn't have to keep them open. he lets his head rest against tsuru's chest.]
.... I suppose not all of us dream of our hostage, then.
[softly, to start.]
.... Aruji was destroying each of you. One by one, using machines to destroy their blades. He was lost to me. The Citadel gone. The ink came for me next, and broke me, until I awoke again and the dream repeated.
[he listens to tsurumaru's heart to keep him steady - and he does not open his eyes. but that does not stop the sadness that permeates into his voice. he was so careful not to speak of it.
it is too close to what he certainly fears most.]
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he doesn't let his steps falter, instead focusing on walking forward. the only other movement is that he leans forward to press a kiss to the top mikazuki's head, soft and warm.
tsurumaru is searching for an answer here. he doesn't think he has one that will solve this. ]
No one has been destroyed.
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... mm. I won't allow it.
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[ it really is unfortunate that mikazuki has had bad luck these last few weeks. ]
You will not break. Even if I have to keep you whole with my bare hands.
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[because even now - jiji's glow had been faint over the course of the week, but ever since returning on thursday, it looks as though he has begun to crack. like porcelain breaking.]
And what if I would rather keep you whole, than make you bleed with my pieces?
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[ he stops walking. ]
Even if that means ignoring what you want.
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… how honest of you.
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[ there's a pause, and then he resumes walking.
they're at least back at the hotel now. ]
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You are at once surprisingly truthful and deceptive, my love.
[and he sounds so terribly fond.]
I never know what ought be done with you.
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[ needy. ]
And second... I guess we will see what happens.
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What would you most like to hear from me?
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What a difficult question...
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[ he's just
going to go to his room ]
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[back to tsuru's room they go!]
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It isn't?
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... it is hard to suggest that I adore you in part. That I might choose your independence, your humor, your subtle care as my favorite piece of you... though I am fond of them all.
Perhaps, when you smile especially brightly, I find you even more beautiful. Or when you are steadfast and reliable, I desire to keep you closer.
But it is you, in your entirety, that I hold dear, Tsurumaru Kuninaga. I possess no favorite part of you, because you are my favorite.
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You could have said I was funny, or something.
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You're funny, or something.
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[ embarrassing. ]
Is there anything in particular that stood out to you in the trial?
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Well, I did leave my accusation upon Kim Dokja... though ultimately I did not care to pursue it.
I do not know if we had all the information necessary to be successful today.
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