[ he'll let him do that, but he's thinking over the question for a while. ]
Couple of reasons, I think. Some a bit more ugly than others. I knew the lie from trial, wasn't going to hold up, so I thought, better to just start telling people. It's going to come across better, if I'm saying it, right?
But suppose I told you before most because I trust you. Don't really know why. I just think if I told you, you'd keep it to yourself if I wanted you to, and you wouldn't judge me for it too harshly either. Not saying you couldn't-- Judge me, that is.
[ . . . . there is the slightest, faintest smile at that. it is tired, but it remains sincere. there is something about molly's words that have managed to touch him.]
... thank you for trusting me. [a beat] It is hard for me to trust, given the nature of what I do and what I am.
I do not judge you. You are still my friend, and I still believe in your radiance.
[he will brush his thumb over molly's knuckles, thoughtful and quiet]
I killed Yoo Joonghyuk - though we have already settled that amongst ourselves. I do not wish for you to think that you did not do very well, or that you carried yourself with anything but intelligence and certainty.
[but he also can't help but wonder that if molly tried any harder, then it might've come down to another hard choice anyway. and mikazuki, for all his faults, still cannot help but
Oh, I promise you did not miss it. It is very new - as soon as his memories returned to him, we met.
[jiji: i avoided a vote and for what? to die from my fellow revived murderer?]
.... I am more worried after everyone else, in truth. [thoughtfully....] I would not be surprised if Harrohwark Nonagesimus has already informed you, but I was the one who left the note regarding Hua Cheng as well.
That matter, more than the shadow, is what I might choose to keep to myself for now.
[ OUCH. MOLLY LOOKS PARTICULARLY WORRIED AT THE MOMENT? Sir you are sitting around here stabbed? please seek medical attention. ]
She didn't mention it, but I also didn't ask. Leaving the note doesn't matter much to me-- I had my suspicions about it anyway, and I'm sure most people did. I won't spread it.
[ah. his expression actually pinches slightly at that, like he feels more regret over that than getting stabbed]
.... It is hard for me to express. I know that Yoo Joonghyuk is a good man, and one I respect. After all he has shared with me, I do wish for him to live a life of happiness, as I do with most others here.
[s.
so.
happy meal.]
... but I would not be surprised if the shadow corrupted even that sentiment.
[also hei oocly suggested it and it was so fucking funny how could i not say yes absolutely]
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w6, SATURDAY
Clusterfuck of a day.
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similarly tired]
... how is your heart, Molly? You worked very hard.
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Not hard enough, apparently.
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he will gently reach out to take molly's hand in both of his, giving it a gentle squeeze]
... why did you decide to confide in me last week?
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Couple of reasons, I think. Some a bit more ugly than others. I knew the lie from trial, wasn't going to hold up, so I thought, better to just start telling people. It's going to come across better, if I'm saying it, right?
But suppose I told you before most because I trust you. Don't really know why. I just think if I told you, you'd keep it to yourself if I wanted you to, and you wouldn't judge me for it too harshly either. Not saying you couldn't-- Judge me, that is.
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... thank you for trusting me. [a beat] It is hard for me to trust, given the nature of what I do and what I am.
I do not judge you. You are still my friend, and I still believe in your radiance.
[he will brush his thumb over molly's knuckles, thoughtful and quiet]
I killed Yoo Joonghyuk - though we have already settled that amongst ourselves. I do not wish for you to think that you did not do very well, or that you carried yourself with anything but intelligence and certainty.
[but he also can't help but wonder that if molly tried any harder, then it might've come down to another hard choice anyway. and mikazuki, for all his faults, still cannot help but
enjoy being alive]
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pulls his hands out of mikazuki's
but only so he can put an arm around his shoulders and pull him over to hug him instead ]
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mikazuki will return it, though his movements are a little slow and careful. his expression is warm and his gaze appreciative
but he can't help the bit of laughter in his voice as he admits - ]
... careful. Yoo Joonghyuk did stab me in the abdomen as a greeting.
[it's
it's pretty fucking funny
he has a sense of humor okay]
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Fuckin'-- hells. We do terrible at these strip check things. Fuck's sake.
[ patting him gently on the back and letting him go so he doesn't ... get worse ... ]
You alright? Apart from that.
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Oh, I promise you did not miss it. It is very new - as soon as his memories returned to him, we met.
[jiji: i avoided a vote and for what? to die from my fellow revived murderer?]
.... I am more worried after everyone else, in truth. [thoughtfully....] I would not be surprised if Harrohwark Nonagesimus has already informed you, but I was the one who left the note regarding Hua Cheng as well.
That matter, more than the shadow, is what I might choose to keep to myself for now.
[the chasmas looked so mad at the end..........]
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[ OUCH. MOLLY LOOKS PARTICULARLY WORRIED AT THE MOMENT? Sir you are sitting around here stabbed? please seek medical attention. ]
She didn't mention it, but I also didn't ask. Leaving the note doesn't matter much to me-- I had my suspicions about it anyway, and I'm sure most people did. I won't spread it.
You remember everything?
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think he's tired. which he is. he looks faintly amused....]
Mm.... I do. [he just. huffs faintly] The shadow is truly an interesting thing.
[happy meal....]
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[ he's rubbing at his temple a bit.
oh but speaking of ]
... What was with the head?
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.... It is hard for me to express. I know that Yoo Joonghyuk is a good man, and one I respect. After all he has shared with me, I do wish for him to live a life of happiness, as I do with most others here.
[s.
so.
happy meal.]
... but I would not be surprised if the shadow corrupted even that sentiment.
[also hei oocly suggested it and it was so fucking funny how could i not say yes absolutely]
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Probably. [ ... ] I tell you about the other guy, in my head?
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but mikazuki will nod briefly...]
... in part. Will you speak more of it?
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[ winding his thumbs in circles around each other. ]
When I killed Emet-Selch, I used his power, instead of mine.