[i hope we meet again in the gy so i can use this catchall
but mikazuki will approach where sieg is being kept, because of course he will. i have no idea the state of his face. i'll tell you later. he might've washed the blood off. that's the bare minimum.]
You don't need to worry about that. I may be younger than you, but I've still lived far longer than most humans. It's not the first time I've been ashamed of my actions . . . or inaction. All I can do is move forward.
Ha ha ha... I know not if 'correct' is the word I would reach for, my friend. But you are right that we shall have to be mindful of future developments.
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week 0, saturday
but mikazuki will approach where sieg is being kept, because of course he will. i have no idea the state of his face. i'll tell you later. he might've washed the blood off. that's the bare minimum.]
Are you in need of anything?
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Sieghart figured they'd see each other again shortly. Seated on the lower bunk of the bed, he's much calmer than before.]
I need to say what I can before tomorrow.
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then mikazuki will allow this to happen. he makes an open-handed gesture before going to help himself to a seat nearby.
the stage is sieg's]
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Sieghart straightens. His right hand almost tingles where he once held the shaving knife.]
I was approached by a shadow at the start of the week. It assured me that it'd help ensure Mari's safety, so I accepted it into myself.
At first, I felt like myself, but . . . by the time Thursday night rolled around, I couldn't control my impulses.
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I do not find myself particularly surprised.
[damn. sucks.]
And how do you feel now, after trial's end?
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[His expression darkens. He curses his weakness.]
I don't believe in false promises. It wasn't my intention to accept it . . . but it ended up taking me anyway.
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Would you suppose that there is any way to save your heart [if not his life, jiji isn't optimistic enough for that] before tomorrow?
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You don't need to worry about that. I may be younger than you, but I've still lived far longer than most humans. It's not the first time I've been ashamed of my actions . . . or inaction. All I can do is move forward.
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. . . . ]
... for what it is worth -
I am sorry that it came to pass this way, my friend.
[despite only throwing the word around so easily today - he meant it.]
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Sieghart exhales quietly.]
I'm sorry, too. That was a shameful display on my part.
[And Mikazuki had to bear the brunt of it today.]
How's your face?
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[he truly doesn't give a fuck about nearly getting stabbed he's just like yea man that's totally fair]
Might I ask you a few more questions on understanding what happened to you?
I would rather get them out of the way, before I get to what's important.
[just... business first,]
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Sieghart simply nods. He did say that he'd explain, and he considers that a priority.]
What is it?
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When you say 'at the start of the week' - do you mean Monday? Where it it approach you, and could you make out any identifying features of its shape?
And when it took you...
You had said that rage has always been a part of your life - but I still wish to know if what you felt during the trial... if that was yours.
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[He gives a small and dismissive wave. It's very simple to him.]
As for the shadow . . . It must have been around then. It just appeared out of the blue, but I don't know what it looked like.
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After you killed Flayn on Thursday, did you feel any differently? Do you know what will become of your -
Mari, you had said?
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[Mari. Mari . . . ]
I don't know. All I know is that I was growing angrier by the day.
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[ . . . ]
Did something in particular prompt you? Did you feel like it must have been her, or was it something you evaluated and chose?
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[He looks aside. It's funny, how quickly insensibility turned into rage.]
I was never angry with her.
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She had already been awake without your intent to kill her specifically?
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It could've been anyone. I would have gone after them no matter what.
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... I see.
That deviates slightly from prior patterns, does it not?
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Given all the places we cover altogether, there's a chance that more changes may come along.
[It would be wonderful if this was a two-week ordeal.]
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[he tilts his head]
... given the prior pattern of the existence of a place for your soul after this, do you hope that is the same?
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comes back to this crusty tag bc i've had it open for a week
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